Sometimes it is Hard to Stick it Out
Tonight I am working on a piece about Portland: Unwired and Personal Telco, as well as trying to figure out my own doubts about God and Church. My background and knowledge just make me so sceptical sometimes about my faith.
I often listen to music while writing. I recently bought a house and am still unpacking so cd's were hard to come by. Working on my laptop I decided to play some music on random from my iTunes library.
Midway through my writing iTunes played "I'm Missin You" by Chris Rice. This is the only Chris Rice song I own, and I often am turned off by Christian Music. But this song seems to both break open my heart and heal old wounds at the same time.
Life sometimes comes at me, and all of us so hard. Finances, relationships, doubt, school, work, laundry, and busywork just all seem to rain when it pours.
"I'm Missin You" is a call for Jesus to return. That my heart will not be complete until his return, that sometimes I just wish Christ would go ahead and return so that this mess of a life that I have to deal with would just be over. Usually late in the eveing after enjoying a glass of wine and feeling lonely, I, in a non suicidal way wish Christ would return so this sinful, at times non-growth filled, and occasionally boring life would be put to rest. This songs is what I would call my depressed music. Because this is one of those songs I want to hear when I am sad and feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. This song encourages my depression for the first few listens. But as time goes by the words of hope in this song brighten my attitude. This song reminds me of the hope I have--I can make it through the rest of today.
I wrote this while under the influence of a fine 1997 Navarro Vineyards Cabernet Savignon nd was inspired by the music of Chris Rice and Bap Kennedy.
I often listen to music while writing. I recently bought a house and am still unpacking so cd's were hard to come by. Working on my laptop I decided to play some music on random from my iTunes library.
Midway through my writing iTunes played "I'm Missin You" by Chris Rice. This is the only Chris Rice song I own, and I often am turned off by Christian Music. But this song seems to both break open my heart and heal old wounds at the same time.
Life sometimes comes at me, and all of us so hard. Finances, relationships, doubt, school, work, laundry, and busywork just all seem to rain when it pours.
"I'm Missin You" is a call for Jesus to return. That my heart will not be complete until his return, that sometimes I just wish Christ would go ahead and return so that this mess of a life that I have to deal with would just be over. Usually late in the eveing after enjoying a glass of wine and feeling lonely, I, in a non suicidal way wish Christ would return so this sinful, at times non-growth filled, and occasionally boring life would be put to rest. This songs is what I would call my depressed music. Because this is one of those songs I want to hear when I am sad and feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. This song encourages my depression for the first few listens. But as time goes by the words of hope in this song brighten my attitude. This song reminds me of the hope I have--I can make it through the rest of today.
I wrote this while under the influence of a fine 1997 Navarro Vineyards Cabernet Savignon nd was inspired by the music of Chris Rice and Bap Kennedy.
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